Sally jumped up as soon as she saw the surgeon come out of the operating room. Running toward him, she said, "How is my little boy? Is he going to be OK? When can I see him?" The surgeon said softly, "I'm sorry, we did all we could." Sally moaned, "Why do little children get cancer anyway? Doesn't God care any more? God, where were You when my son needed You?"
The surgeon patted her arm. "One of the nurses will be out in a few minutes to take you in so you can spend time with him before he's transported to the university."
Sally asked the nurse to stay with her while she said goodbye to her son, and as she ran her fingers through his thick red curly hair, the nurse asked, "Would you like a lock of his hair?"
Sally nodded. The nurse cut a lock of his hair and put it in a plastic bag and handed it to Sally.
Sally said, "It was Jimmy's idea to give his body to the university for study. He said it might help somebody else and that's what he wanted. I said no at first, but Jimmy said, 'Mom I won't be using it after I die and maybe it will help some other little boy be able to spend one more day with his mother'." She added, "My Jimmy had a heart of gold, always thinking of someone else and always wanting to help others if he could."
Sally walked out of the Children's Hospital for the last time now after spending most of the last 6 months there. She sat the bag with Jimmy's things beside her in the car. The drive home was hard; it was even harder to go into an empty house. She took the bag to Jimmy's room and started placing the model cars and things back in his room exactly where he always kept them. She laid down across his bed and cried herself to sleep holding his pillow.
Sally awoke about midnight. Lying beside her on the bed was a folded up piece of paper. She opened the letter and read:
"Dear Mom, I know you're going to miss me, but don't think that I will ever forget you or stop loving you because I'm not around to say I love you. I'll think of you every day, Mom and I'll love you even more each day. Some day we'll see each other again. If you want to adopt a little boy so you won't be so lonely, he can have my room and my old stuff to play with.
"If you decide to get a girl instead, she probably wouldn't like the same things as us boys do, so you'll have to buy her dolls and stuff girls like.
"Don't be sad when you think about me - this is really a great place. Grandma and Grandpa met me as soon as I got here and even showed me around some, but it'll take a long time to see everything here. The angels are so friendly and they really take care of everything.
"Jesus doesn't look like any of the pictures I seen of Him, but I knew it was Him as soon as I seen Him. And He took me to see God! And guess what, mom? I got to sit on God's knee and talk to Him like I was somebody important.
"I told God that I wanted to write you a letter and tell you goodbye and everything, but I was sure that wasn't allowed. But then God handed me some paper and His own personal pen to write you this letter with. I think Gabriel is the name of the angel who will drop this letter off to you.
"God said for me to give you the answer to one of the questions you asked Him about -- Where was He when I needed Him?
God said, the same place He was when Jesus was on the cross. Which was right there, as He always is with all His children.
Oh, by the way, Mom, nobody else can see what is written on this paper but you. To everyone else it will look like a blank piece of paper. I have to give God His pen back now, He has some more names to write in the Book Of Life.
Tonight I get to sit at the table with Jesus for Supper. I'm sure the food will be great.
I almost forgot to let you know ... now I don't hurt anymore. The cancer is all gone. I'm glad because I couldn't stand that pain anymore and neither could God stand to see me suffer the pain either so He sent the Angel of Mercy to get me. The Angel said I was Special Delivery!